Do you ever just feel stuck?
If you’ve been reading The Usual Bliss for a while, you’ve likely caught on that John and I are anxious to start a family. Wow- it sure hasn’t been easy! I’m learning throughout this struggle that this is one area of my life that, try as I might, I cannot completely control. I’ve also learned that I’m stronger than I think. And I’ve learned that despite what a painful loneliness accompanies it, infertility affects a huge number of people. Possibly the most reassuring “assistance” one can receive during this process is the knowledge that she is not alone.
I won’t pretend that my belief in living optimistically hasn’t been challenged during this time- it has. The written word has always been therapeutic for me; it’s a method I use to become un-stuck. There’s something about the act of articulating an experience or emotion that makes it more real. Each couple’s infertility story is unique and deeply personal; I shared a little bit about our “Operation Baby” experience in a piece I call “The Mud Season” on Elephant Journal today. It’s tricky to condense our 15-month roller coaster ride into a few sentences. We’ve been through a lot, but are optimistic about our future. Whatever the outcome, our journey has taught me humility and patience, and made me all the more grateful for the love I have from my family, dear friends, and- most importantly- my handsome hubby. You can link to the article by clicking HERE.